its been a while, your absent ADHD dopamine starved hot mess.
One of the challenges faced being in and not in the closet is that bouts of disphoria are tough when you cant have space to resolve that when your allready in a dopamine crash. For the past month I have been trying to motivate every inch of me into promotion at work and seeking other employment. This has left what little dopamine i had massively depleted. However opportunities to practice makeup and outfit combinations had a massive boost to stave off a complete meltdown following a not great, but not disasterous interview. This however brought me to somewhat functional levels, but nothing extra yo push through another round. However 2 weeks ago I realised one of the posts i submitted an application for, had been filed to an identical scheme listed for another location i would not be able to move to, and the scheme for my location had closed. Que usual cycle of self blame and hate for not realising this, and knowlage that it will happen again due to A number of neurodiverse...