Rebecca Riot's Diary

Title is a Kristeen Young song about how you cant wait to get to a certain point in life. This is where i am at. A week until i get to go shopping with my awesome supportive sibling fore makeup. And im just wanting now. Im seeing mutual friends of my spouse and I post selfies with drag performers, another open thier house to a trans individual fleeing from another state. Andnim still tip-toeing around my spouse's anger and projection, when i just want to reconcile Becca and the day to day me as the same person to a lot of people.

Im fortunate enough to have a name that when shortned is unisex, and there has only one time I had a moment of Gender-Disphoria over the use of my long format name. Generally I am unbothered by pronouns or my name personally.  PLEASE NOTE; not all genderfluid people have dodged this bullet, so its allways best to ask and respect the use off. However i still go by a pseudonym online, and to identify the femminine mode of me to friends. Why? Safety is an important thing. And women may often use a false name to avoid stalking, women in adult entertainment allways will. There is allways going to be a chaser that cant understand "No", the neckbeard that sees is as an object to possess, the Terf that wants to out us, or many other genuine reasons of safety from "I dont want my sides of life to collide", to just plain straigh "I dont want to get un-alived". I chose the name Becca to keep this side of me private when I wasnt ready to be out. To keep this side of m...