Differences of opinion

So yesterday my wife said she didnt get why I had to wear makeup when I was explaining the plastic tool i bought to help with mascara.

I told her that i bought it as im very much unpracticed and prone to making a mess with.mascara in perticular. 

She said she still considers it a kink for men, that I only seemed to go this way when she stopped making an effort in her appearance. 

Perhaps there was some correlation (not causation) in this. She made a notable change and neglect of self care due to her health. This added strain on me as she refused medical advice, and I stepped up efforts in accomidation. This had an impact on my health and now not only was I neglecting the part of me that wished to not be a scruffy guy, but now the scruffy guy time was cut as I was just so exhausted after working, fretting over bills and now fretting over her health.

As to her accusation its a kink thing, I dont think it is for me. I hate how grey my face looks, the texture of my skin, the fact i seem to have aged 20 years in 10. Theres multiple reasons why I am crying out for a reset in my life. Instead i am trapped in a body I feel disconnected to, and policed on what i wear and how I look.

I feel trapped by her complete disregard of self care or financial independence, relying solely on me to work and come home and try to mitigate her problems from my pocket rather than her speak to a doctor.

But the icing on the cake was this morning. After saying women should not have to wear makeup she angrily admonished me for wanting to put the cats in thier room and head out to the car boot sale before shes even put on makeup, because her skin texture, rosacia, and lack of eyebrows.

Gender afirming care for thee but not for me.