My fears turning 30.

11 years ago i was thinking my window for presenting was fading. I was depressed, overweight and living in crowded accomidation, and finding no alone time to dress or even think of practicing makeup.

At this time i still truly disnt know what was up with me. I wanted to be glamerous, i envied the femme fetalles for thier grace and cool, but i didnt feel this all the time, and i was not attracted to men, so why did i feel this way. 

I considered the goal of just glamming up to be unatainable past 30.

I just want to go back in time and alap myself for being ageist, and showing what a bit of support and help from my sister for basic application advice can achieve.

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